Showing posts with label busyness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label busyness. Show all posts

Friday, May 7, 2010

A True Story

I have been taking pain medicine regularly the past two weeks because of an injury I unfortunately sustained from my adventurous, heroic life.  I think it is because of this medicine that I now have the strange urge to just sit in a chair for up to an hour doing nothing but staring and dozing in and out of consciousness. 

It was in this state on Saturday that I suddenly pulled myself together and realized I needed to leave and go to Sherman in order to get my car inspected (this was planned in advance, not a further product of the medication).  State automobile inspections cost about $25 less there than in Dallas, fyi. 

By the time I made it to Sherman, the place I had intended to go was closing for the day.  I was only staying in town until Sunday, so I was anxious to find a new place.  My mom called a couple of places while I rushed to check my car over, and finally found a place that would stay open long enough.  The second problem arose in that we were planning on meeting my grandparents for dinner at 6:30, so we would have to leave Sherman at 5:30.  My mom went ahead and bumped that appointment back a half hour.

I finally made it to the auto shop, which was completely filled with people.  There were 6 adult costumers and 3 children.  I filled out the paperwork knowing that there was no way I would be out of there within the hour.  Luckily I had brought my book with me, so I approached one of two empty seats to allow my mind to stray from thinking about the time I didn’t have to spend waiting to thinking about the wondrous late 1700s. 

In hindsight, the seat I chose was notably strange.  There was one seat on my left occupied by a little girl and then a man on his cell phone in the seat on my right.  I thought it was unusual that the girl was sitting alone, but, eager to dig into my book, I sat.  Soon the man left to talk outside and I was left with mild curiosity as to whom the little girl belonged. 

This is the part of the story where I could easily stray from the truth, which I am very tempted to do.  Although that would perhaps make it much more interesting, I am committed to telling this story as honestly as I can, even if its oddness lacks extraordinariness.

After a few minutes, a woman emerged from the restroom and I intuitively knew she had previously occupied the seat I was now in, providing the understandable link between estranged-seat girl and aloof father.  I was embarrassed.  She refused the stolen seat I offered back to her and simply took the girl outside. 

My physical impairments at the moment include the annoying limitation of not being able to turn my head very far, and since I was facing away from the window, I could not see what the reunited family was doing, but I don’t think they came back in at any point.

At almost the same time, another couple left the waiting area with their two young sons, who had previously been attempting to create dirt angels on the floor of the building.

This left me alone with the final couple, who sat modestly in the corner.

A comparatively long time passed before the stillness of the waiting room was disrupted by the man.  He asked me what I was reading.  I told him and explained a little of what it is about (proud to be caught reading this cool new book about explorers, inventors, and scientific discoverers).  The man, however, was simply interested in the way the pages were cut – they have a rough raggedy look on the top. 

I was glad for the conversation, although a little disheartened by the content.  Nevertheless, we continued to talk about books and how he wants to read more.

Time passed; my car sat in the parking spot ignored by all; and I sat in the waiting room sticking out like a dedicated, fast paced college student in a modest auto repair shop where time stands still (sort of). 

Finally, a mechanic came in, and just to tease me, grabbed my keys and a clipboard and opened the door to go outside.  Then he stopped, walked back in and addressed the couple sitting in the corner.  He started by saying, “You know how I like to tell jokes?...” and my heart sank a little. 

To tell the truth, I was not in any rush (remember I was medicated).  But I knew my mom and grandparents were eager to go to dinner, and I did not want to be the reason to delay it too much. 

The mechanic continued by saying, “There were two blond girls talking to each other about men.  One asked the other, ‘What kind of man do you like?’ The other responded, ‘Actually, I am dating a Brazilian.’ The first replied, ‘Wow! Now, how many is that?’”

I couldn’t help but laugh along with the corner couple, which gave the mechanic more confidence as he spouted off several more from his fine collection of Obama jokes and other topics that were not worth remembering.

Then, satisfied that he had humored us, he finally went to check my car.  It looked like I would be getting out on time to rush home and then rush an hour away from there to dinner.

It was harder to read.  I kept looking up anxious that the inspection would go quickly and that I would pass, when suddenly I saw the mechanic talking to someone else who had walked up to my car.  I tried to stick to reading, but looked up again to see my car deserted and the mechanic joker to be across the parking lot talking with someone who had just pulled up. 

Minutes ticked by.  The friendly owner of the store came in from working on another car and chatted with the other couple as they slowly paid and left.  And finally, my car was inspected.  I was free, well, at least after I talked some more with the owner who pegged me as a college student from the local college.  He told me the story of the shop, how long he’d been there and all the moves he had to make.  I could tell he cared about his job and that it brought him a lot of joy.  Maybe that’s why the busyness and the business of the place seemed so relaxed.

I will definitely go back.


P.S. I learned a lot from this 2 hour segment of my life, and I hope that this story is more than merely a personal anecdote.  Hopefully, there are many things for you to consider.

I will leave you with one:

This encounter leaves me wondering, what would it be like if we had yearly people inspections?  Would it be merely biologically oriented, like a medical physical, or would there be other tests (such as those of social skills and patience)?  And would any of us pass these people inspections?

I think I met some people that would.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Ordinariness

I recently remembered how exciting my England trip was last summer.  I would come into a town and have no clue where anything was or how to get anywhere.  It was a thrill to figure out how to orient myself, get a little lost, and then reorient myself the right way.  I was constantly on the move, finding buses or trains, making plans on the go, and living in a completely strange place.

My situation now is much different.  The past month I have been living in a very familiar place with nothing pressing to do.  No job, no school, no urgent obligations to fill. My days typically consist of reading, writing a little, hanging out, and sometimes watching tv.  Compared to my previous summer, my life now is very ordinary.

Not bad, not easy, not hard.  Just ordinary.

These feelings are compounded as I watch many Olympic athletes who are living truly extraordinary lives right now.  My life is not half as exciting as any of their lives.

While I think there is value in both slow and fast-paced living, I have found myself struggling with making this ordinariness very meaningful.  And given our fast paced world, I would bet that I am not the only one that struggles with moments of pause.

But my concern is not merely one of restlessness.

Shouldn’t a life lived with the Creator of the universe be filled with unceasing wonder? 

Shouldn’t a life lived with the Almighty protector and redeemer of Israel be exciting, challenging, and even a little fear inspiring? 

Shouldn’t a life lived with the Savior of the world be filled with self-sacrifice and constant helping of others? 

So, where is that cutting edge excitement that is an essential characteristic to the nature of the God who fills my heart?  Where are all the life changing experiences?  Where is the busy life of nonstop pursuit of God that I have experienced so often?

And what value is there in this ordinary life?

The first I have found is identity.  I can no longer define myself by what I do, because I do nothing.  I am not a student, tutor, youth minister or whatever else I might at some point in my life by able to identify myself as.  Instead I have been forced to find identity within myself, who I really am – a loved child of God.  That leads me to consider more organically what I should do.  I am not doing things for myself, to fulfill some missing piece of me, but rather I am working and doing stuff because the God who loves me opens up opportunities around me though which I can share His love.  This makes the focus less on me and more on God.  

And this God with whom I can identify is the Creator of the universe – how much more wonderful could life get?

Second, it has helped me cope with the debilitating restlessness of typical American life.  I feel much more comfortable now at home with nothing to do.  I don’t feel as driven to be constantly working or doing something.  There is an issue here between complacency and contentedness.  It is tempting to become complacent and too comfortable doing nothing.  Complacency implies not only a lack of growth, but also apathy that there is no growth.  It is challenging to not fall into this mode of being.  Being content, on the other hand, allows you to appreciate whatever is going on in your life at the moment, and to find ways to grow even in ordinary times.  I have learned to be content with what God has given me and what He is doing in my life. 

As my actions have become less exciting, the God I am coming to know and serve and the ways in which He is intervening in my life have become even more exciting.

My contentedness has deepened in knowing that my soul can be full and I can be growing ever closer to God even when life is not flashing before me.  I have learned that changing the world can look pretty ordinary.  I don’t have to be solving world issues in order to show love to others and to better know God’s presence around me.  I in no way intend to imply that I have been perfect in this, but I have come to realize that the small things we do (listening to someone over tea, being present to offer encouragement, laughing and eating with people), these ordinary things can be truly extraordinary ways of engaging in the world around us. 

I have found that self sacrifice can come in the simplest of expressions.

Our lives are not action packed; in fact, probably more ordinary than not.  And even Olympians live such fast paced lives only periodically throughout the years.  So, I have found it important to be ever wondering: How do we make all our time meaningful?  How do we live a good ordinary life?

Through an embrace of the ordinariness of my life I have begun to find the consistent, subtle wonder, excitement, fear, and self sacrifice that lies at the heart of following God daily.